What I Know…

I know that God is in this thing.
I know that we are going to come out of this better than we went into it.
I also know that what I think “better” means is almost certainly not the “better” God has in mind.
I know that He is good.
I know that He is just.
I know that He is faithful.
I know that I don’t believe any of that as much as I need to.

2 thoughts on “What I Know…

  1. I know what you’re feeling and what you’re going through and I can tell you from personal experience….it’s just easier to trust Him because that’s where you end up anyway from sheer desperation.

    I wish I’d realized this YEARS ago and I wouldn’t have spent the last several years so worried and tied up in knots and mad at God. It’s when I finally hit the bottom, realized I was COMPLETELY out of answers and had NOTHING left in me to even THINK I had any answers that I finally said, “I trust you Lord.” I didn’t mean it at that point, but didn’t have much choice. It’s when Gene Evans said in a message that people who trust themselves more than they trust God are just idoloters. They worship themselves and their abilities and ideas and plans more than they worshipped and trusted God. THAT is when I thought…this whole trust thing isn’t just a case of “silly me…I don’t trust God. Oh well.” I thought, “Crap…I’m an idol worshipper!!!!” That was the final thing that brought me to the point of meaning it when I say, “I trust you Lord.” And you know what?….I really do!

    I’ve not worried or fretted over how my life or my family’s lives will turn out. I’ve let go of thinking I have to figure it all out and make something happen. I’m sure I’ve still got other things in me that need to be cleaned up, but it’s just amazing how being on the verge of “losing it” will make you finally realize you don’t have any other choice EXCEPT to trust Him. My worry and my plans sure didn’t do anything to help so I was out of ideas.

    I know you know all this, but I wasnted to encourage you that I know what you’re feeling and you’re not alone! You feel as if you’re carrying the weight of not only your family, but sometimes, the world on your shoulders and you don’t know how to keep it all together. My advice…do what you can; be obedient when you hear His voice, and let some of the plates you’re trying to keep spinning just fall. I promise, it’s not the end of the world and you might be amazed at how much lighter you feel when you realize it wasn’t your responsibility to keep them spinning anyway!!!! Love you brother!

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